So many things have been on my mind of late that the motivation I had in the beginning is dwindling down to shreds. However, as I read Cristin's post tonight, I thought how right she was regarding how exercise makes you feel better. I am in desperate need of released endorphins. Today, I awakened early enough to walk and workout and I didn't do either. Damn.
I traveled to Troy and scarfed down a Frosty! Yes, what was I thinking? I wasn't. Wait, yes, I was. I was thinking how hard it was raining, how the inches I have lost have come from my behind, the area that didn't need work, and how I'm tired of juggling bills. In other words, my stress level is rising. I hate that. It all begin with the impending thought of school starting soon and my child in need of school clothes and my not having a penny (literally) to spare. I freaking hate I went back to school and I hate that I have student loan debt and I hate that I feeling this way when I should lay all of this on the altar. (Sorry, I just needed to vent.)
So now, I'm motivated again. Thanks, Cristin. I had the nerve to write my dates on the calendar and now I'll have to go back and redo it. Yes, I'm the kind of anal person that I have to no just how many days I have to make a life change and stick with it.
I know the two of you are going to split into two pieces when I admit that I'm ready to go back to work. I can't believe it myself. Here's the reason. I need structure. When I'm working, I have a tendency to eat breakfast before 7:30; look forward to a snack at break; eat a sensible lunch; and drive home to eat a meal before 6:30 or later catches me. Even though I have been burning calories, I have to stay awake until 1 or 2 am because my crazy tail didn't start eating until 9:00 because after my walk (when I do it), I could care less for cooking. Whatever argument you are going to give me ...feggedaboutit because I've already had the same argument countless times.
My mind is my biggest setback. Let's see if I can stick with it. Help me Cristin by asking me the million dollar question...Have you been Active on your Wii? Plus, you can drive the nail home a little deeper by replying I have and I feel great!
If I don't get back to moving, I'm going to move from dreaming about my high heels to watching them on my child's feet as she prances out the door on a date.
Peace.
You know, we're going to cheat every now and again, so don't be discouraged by a Frosty! Part of our problem (and I mean more than just the three of us) is that when we go on a "diet", we categorize a lot of what we love as "forbidden". We have a craving and tell ourselves, "No, I CAN'T eat that!" We try to deny our bodies something that they want. So when we finally DO get it, we go overboard. We feel guilty. We feel hopeless.
ReplyDeleteSo you had a Frosty? Did you get the largest size available and scarf every bite? Did you buy extras so you could stock your freezer and have them waiting at your beck and call? Did you also go and eat a couple of candy bars or buy a bunch of sweets to stock up at home as a panacea for the legions of guilt soldiers that would be marching by later? No?
Did you know that on The Biggest Loser, they have a "binge" day every week? I don't think they necessarily binge and gorge themselves on food, but they take something that's been "forbidden" the rest of the week and have a reasonable portion -- maybe even a lower-fat/lower-calorie version. Like, been craving fettucini alfredo? Make a healthier version that still tastes yummy and get a portion. Craving sugar? Find a healthy way to get your sweet on.
By the way, since you are the chocolate goddess.... Friends I had in college did Weight Watchers. When one craved chocolate, she would get some ricotta cheese, add some cocoa powder and a sweetener. (I think she used Splenda. It's a WW recipe, so Cristin might have it.) She loved it, it was at least fairly healthy, and it kicked her chocolate craving, too.
What I love about WW is that it teaches you to balance your cravings. You can indulge yourself every-now-and-again, but you also have to be point conscious at the same time.
ReplyDeleteThere are TONS of low-cal recipes (even ice cream!) that you could make instead. Also, I have learned to do my homework so I have a tally in my head: "Okay, small cone at DQ is ___ points. Or this is way too many points-- stay away from that." I think if you have this cheat sheet in your head, phone, or car you can still indulge but not feel absolutely guilt-stricken afterwards! Like the boy scouts say, "Always be prepared!" (That's their motto, right?)