So, yes, I am still here. Not lighter, but a bit heavier than my last update. Labor Day holiday with my family and the in-laws sort of blew it for me: Cheesecake, hot fudge sauce, ribs, chicken... yadda, yadda, yadda... You name it, I probably ate it.
The four pounds I lost the last blog update have been put back on... and probably a little more. I was a little afraid to weigh-in yesterday. I should probably force myself upon the scales in the morning.
Here's my problem: It's just too easy. It's too easy to say, "Oh, that fried ______ (fill in the blank) won't matter." But the problem is that while maybe ONE slip up/indulgence in a blue moon might not matter THAT but (when I know it really does) but if it's like "Whoops! Three slip ups in a week!" Oh my, yes then it does matter. It's too easy to grab lunch between schools now on my commute. It's too easy to wake up and say, "Oops, not enough time to pack my lunch and Thomas's lunch. I'll just pack his." It's too easy to not eat the boring-ass tuna and apple sauce that I do diligently packed for the first two weeks of school and kept losing weight. Yes, it's just too easy.
Also, it's too easy to consider weigh-loss surgery. It's been on my mind since 2009. But sometimes the risks outweigh the benefits in my mind. It scares the hell out of me, but having health problems in the near future scares the hell out of me too. I really fell like I need to make this effort on my own, but having been overweight for your entire life-- it's not too easy to think of not being overweight.
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